Jenee: 0:06

Welcome to the Heartlight Sessions, a podcast about light working your way through dark times. I'm Janae Halstead. I'm a singer-songwriter, holistic vocal coach, intuitive guide and plant medicine facilitator. I'm also a survivor of childhood abuse, autoimmune issues and my 30s. I'm also a survivor of childhood abuse, autoimmune issues and my 30s. I'm on a lifelong healing journey and, along the way, I want to share the ideas and teachings that rock my world. Every week on Heartlight Sessions, I call in artists, healers and thinkers to explore what's helped them live and thrive from a heart-centered place, because the heart, it's where the best things happen. If you've ever wondered how to unlock your biggest breakthroughs or how to come back from that stuff that tried to kill you, you know the stuff I'm talking about, the stuff that's supposed to make you stronger. Or if you've ever wondered how to just do you straight from the heart, you're in the right place. So join me, won't you? Let's turn on that heart light. Hello, hello, beautiful, hello. So happy to have you here.

Stephanie: 1:26

Oh, thank you for having me. It is a pleasure always to sit with you, so thank you.

Jenee: 1:32

I have Steph Lilly Smith here with me and she is a powerhouse, major powerhouse in both. I'm going to read a little bit of her bio. I just took a little section of it. She has a beautiful bio which I'll post on the description page A powerhouse in both corporate and entertainment industries, with over a decade as a producer, former talent agent, and two decades as a performer, which I did not know about that, so we'll have to talk about that.

Jenee: 2:03

She is like groundbreaking digital content from brands like Havianas, Happy Organics, as well as the 51st NAACP Image Awards. As the executive producer for Abbott Elementary star and stage and screen legend Cheryl Lee, Ralph's Divas Simply Singing, she orchestrated a landmark 2020 Televise special raising $350,000, which is mind-blowing. Stephanie's diverse career, spanning arts, education and service, aligns with her holistic approach to well-being. As the force behind Creatricity, she redefines collaboration in Hollywood and media, connecting studios, production companies and creatives to bring visionary projects to life. I was like how am I gonna like ask her to explain what she does? Because there's just like there's a lot of dimensions there.

Stephanie: 2:59

I think that is um. I don't know if you do anything or know anything about human design, but I'm a manifesting generator and so I can't help but just have my hands in 10 things at once. I love it.

Jenee: 3:16

Yeah. It's so nice, cause you have the energy as a manifester. As a generator you have that kind of the generative energy, but as a manifester it's like you know.

Stephanie: 3:25

It's a vision and you just and you move and you go really fast, and sometimes that can throw people off because I do move really fast, they're like whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. You're like 30 steps ahead and I'm still here at step one.

Jenee: 3:38

That would be me.

Stephanie: 3:39

I'm like wait, I know this is going to work, but can you, can you show me like yeah?

Jenee: 3:47

Yeah, yeah. So can you tell me a little bit about Creatricity, and are you still um? You have two other business partners with that, right, or I?

Stephanie: 3:56

have one business partner. Yeah, um, I co-founded Creatricity in 2020, actually it's our five year anniversary in 2020. Actually it's our five-year anniversary, um, actually it was on like the. We were in a leap year that year, so it was the 29th or the 1st of march um and it was just before the pandemic. Everything was shutting down. I was in new york city, um, and my girlfriend her name is cassandra freeman um, I don't know if anybody's watching the reimagined version of Fresh Prince of Bel-Air, but she's the star on there.

Jenee: 4:29

I thought I recognized her name, yeah, wow.

Stephanie: 4:33

She's the new Viv over there and she called me out of the blue one day. It wasn't out of the blue, but it was out of the blue.

Stephanie: 4:41

She called up my husband and she was like where's your wife? I need to speak to her. We had met one other time at my brother-in-law's wedding. We had less than a 30 minute conversation then, but we hadn't spoken and that had been probably two years at that time. So she reaches out. She's like where's your wife? I need to speak to her. And he was like actually she's here in the city with me. She was like I need to speak to her. He was like actually she's here in the city with me. Um, she was like I need to speak to her. So we met up for coffee the next day or like a day or so later and she was like I need help organizing my life. And I was like okay, um, so I just kind of took a look at like what she had going on and I put it in a system, because I'm all about systems and workflow. And she was like this is incredible. I'm actually doing an event in a few weeks. And she knew I did events and I was I was working with Shirley Ralph at the time and she she was like well, how do you know I'm?

Stephanie: 5:41

Can you help me? And I was like yeah, I'm actually I don't have anything going on. I actually had been released from a job, um, and it was the second time I had was working with this boss and I was really upset and I just like I did not know what to do. Um, or he basically told me that I wasn't a good producer, that I could stick to working with talent only, and he fired me over the phone and we had worked together for one season and I completely shut down his business, sold all his equipment while he went and worked for another company. Business sold all his like equipment while he went and worked for another company. And this was the second time he came back to me and he was like I'd love to work together again. That's where I did my work with Fabianas and.

Stephanie: 6:34

BlackRock Financial. And, anyway, he called me up out of the blue one day and he was like yeah, so we're going to like release you. And I was like devastated. This was the second time I had let this happen. When was this? This was in 2020.

Stephanie: 6:52

Oh wow, this was literally like days before Cassie called me up. So yeah, she called me up and she's like, can you help me with this event that I've got going on? And I'm like, can you help me with this event that I've got going on? And I'm like, sure, and she was getting together a group of Black actresses to just kind of be in the room. And the premise was you know, we're not able to get together in community as artists, as creatives, when it's not an audition, when it's not award season or whatever that case may be. So, and we also understood that most creatives are multi hyphenates. They do multiple different things.

Stephanie: 7:31

They never kind of figure out how to get things started in those other lanes. So we brought in a business strategist and it was really just a fun gathering. We got together probably 50 women that day, and what we realized after that was ultimately there was no way that we could help everyone in that were grounded with educational resources, virtual and in-person programming, and then our ultimate goal will be to produce content that is birthed from the collaborations within our membership.

Jenee: 8:25

Wow, and how many people are now in it?

Stephanie: 8:29

We have 200 members and we have about 1200 that are sitting, that are subscribed to our newsletter and that that interact with us, engage with us, and we hit about 3000 on on our Instagram recently.

Jenee: 8:43

So, we're, we're out there. Congratulations, thank you, thank you so much, and do you find that it's just Los Angeles or is it starting to span, like New York, la and where you're at?

Stephanie: 8:57

So we've launched successfully in New York and Los Angeles and we've had a handful of events on both coasts over the years. I am looking to now launch here in Dallas this year. So I am looking for partners to collaborate with me here and I'm actually just trying to get to know people here that are in the creative community.

Stephanie: 9:20

So I've made a few friends and I've met a few people and I recently went to a candle making class, which was really fun and it was intimate, so there were like only 16 people in the class. So I figured doing something smaller like that that gives people something to do as an easy icebreaker to start conversation, um, as well as being creative by um, you know, creating something that they can take home and um also talk about the amazing experience that they had. Um, I'm thinking about doing something like that here. Cool.

Jenee: 9:59

Yeah, I'm so like I'm just in admiration of you and we were talking before a little bit, before we hit record, and I was saying how, just how shiny you are lately and how blown away I am. I mean, I've always been blown away by you. There's just like an arrival. That's happened in the last year and, um, when I get on Instagram like you're one of the first people I go to to listen to. It's been like your content has been extremely uplifting for me and like funny. You know that in times where I was feeling kind of like what am I doing? I have no idea, like half the stuff that I'm thinking is about bringing into the world is crazy or whatever I I look to you as a, as kind of a guiding light, because I've I've found that the content always kind of fits what I'm needing to hear in my heart.

Stephanie: 11:00

You- know, amazing. Thank you for sharing that number one, and I'm really happy that I can be a reflection to you, because, you know, the feeling to me is wholly mutual. I feel like every time I see you, you are, you are doing things that I've always longed to do. You're recording, you're singing, always, and um. So I'm happy that I can bring even a little inspiration to you, and I hope that you know those who are watching and listening as well. Um, we'll see a little bit of light on on both of our pages.

Jenee: 11:37

Yeah, I'm very curious about your journey in the last year and your head space and your your body space and and where you've arrived and it has been a um.

Stephanie: 11:53

It's been a journey we relocated to from Los Angeles to Dallas in August of 23. I think that's right. It's been about a year and a half now, and that was a upheaval for me.

Jenee: 12:14

And it was really really hard for me to leave the city. I knew it was going to be hard. I saw you?

Stephanie: 12:20

When did I see you?

Jenee: 12:21

Was it June?

Stephanie: 12:23

I think you guys saw us in august, like it was right before you guys, right before, like at the top of the month, and then we left towards the end of the month. So, um, yeah, it was really tough. I still get emotional thinking about it because this it, it is home, it is, yeah, still to me. My closest and dearest friends still live there, and so it was really an emotional move and yet a necessary move for our family here, thankfully, what hasn't been too much of a difficult transition, uh, physically, um, but emotionally and mentally it was, um, and I definitely felt moments of um doubt, of, like I'm moving.

Stephanie: 13:17

My company is, you know, set up here and, um, you know, I was the face here and now, like, I'm in Dallas, like who's gonna help me over there? And one of the girls who was on our team, who was really kind of instrumental in strategy and helping us operationally. She also moved back to the East Coast and now she's in New York, which is really helpful because my co founder lives there when she's in New York, which is really helpful because, uh, my co-founder lives there, um, when she's not working, but she lives in LA when she is working. So, um, anyway, it was. It took a toll on me mentally, um, and for a time I was probably depressed, you know, and deeply just like, like what is this? I stopped meditating Like there was no practice.

Stephanie: 14:16

There wasn't and, interestingly enough, before we left, we sat with you and did Bufo, which let me just interject for a moment. Ladies and gentlemen, please, please, please, please. First of all, I heard about it in the most random way. Uh, I was watching HGTV and, um, I don't know if anyone watches Slip or Flop, but Christina Hall, I think, is her name. I was reading a People Magazine article about her journey with Bupo and, yes, and how it like, completely, just like, rocked her, world unlocked, you know.

Stephanie: 15:04

Yes, and how it like, completely, just like, rocked her world unlocked, you know, cleared out a bunch of darkness that she was going through and I was like it just made me curious. That was the first time I had ever heard of it. Number one, and my journey with psychedelics started in 2017, just before I got married with Cornelius, um, with ayahuasca, and that was transformative for me as well. It was like the beginning of the beginning of the beginning, um. It led me to kundalini yoga, um wow, I didn't know that because I was deeply steeped in my in Christianity.

Stephanie: 15:49

all the way up to that, like all the way up to that point, I was singing at church, I was deeply involved and you know, cornelius had done it three or four times by that point, done it three or four times by that point. Um, actually, the first weekend after I met him he was going to do his first ceremony, which was hilarious, because I was like, well, what is this? And something in me wanted to be judgmental, uh, about it, and I just something also said, something also said don't do that, just observe. And I did, and he came back and he just was like it was. It was like he knew that there was a connection between us, but it like a lot like completely like locked in. He was like you have no idea, I'm a completely different person. I have like completely cleared out some things. Like I used to be an asshole Like.

Stephanie: 16:48

So you know, that was my first kind of like, hmm, and he was like I think you should do this, I think this would be really helpful for you. And it took me a few years. Um, and I was doing some past life work, um, with a dear friend of mine and um, something came up around my father and I was like I'm ready, I have to do that. I have to do this.

Stephanie: 17:14

Um, when can we go? How soon is this happening again? Um, and magically, um, we got an email from the, from the facilitator like three weeks later and we were in there and I picked one of my best friends with me.

Stephanie: 17:32

Cornelius came, his father came as well. Yeah, Like it was. It was amazing. And I'm sitting there, I'm deeply in the medicine and I don't think I'm going to purge. The whole ceremony is over. People are in the kitchen coming back to life, and I go downstairs to put my blanket and I'm like wait a second, oh. I know that yeah.

Stephanie: 18:03

Come back upstairs, um, my best friend's like would you like some tea? I was like, okay, yeah, I'll take some tea. She gives me a a cup of tea. I take two sips and I go out into the space where everybody had been, you know, in ceremony, and I go to my bucket purge, but it was as if I was screaming at the top of my lungs. I did not feel sick, I actually just felt like I was screaming yes, like just screaming, and I had been dealing with at that time I didn't even realize I was dealing with throat chakra issues, a lot Completely in my throat chakra, just because of the way I was raised.

Stephanie: 18:55

And like, speaking my truth was not that, it wasn't welcomed. I had fear around speaking my truth because sometimes that truth was different to what I was supposed to believe or what I was supposed to be doing. So fast forward 2023, and I was sitting with you and Philippe, like I also knew it was time to sit with that medicine. You got the call. Yeah, it was like okay, now it's time, and I want to tell you that this experience is different for everyone, but it was so good for me. So it was. I feel like I felt so when I got up the first time since, we did two rounds when.

Stephanie: 19:55

I got up the first time, I was like what is this? But this felt like the most beautiful. I was like what is this? But this felt like the most beautiful like luxury was the word that came up for me. I just felt so like, oh, it was just incredible, and Janae is chanting and singing throughout the entire ceremony and it felt like it was hours at a time but it was probably only a few minutes 20, 30 minutes.

Stephanie: 20:30

Okay, um, and I remember saying I don't have fear of the afterlife anymore, the fear of know the all. I actually saw the all, yes, the infinity space, um, and I was like, oh, it's so beautiful, yeah yeah beautiful in here. Um, and also, what do you have to worry about? Like, it was the beginning of that like why am I concerned? Why? Am I worried about anything, because I'm held and I'm loved and I'm so supported, and so you know, all the guidance I need is in me.

Stephanie: 21:10

It's here already, like there is no absence. Um, so that was my first kind of like realization when I was getting up.

Jenee: 21:20

I loved your um. Oh, go ahead no no, no, um.

Stephanie: 21:25

I just was so excited because I was feeling so much anxiety about leaving Um and it gave me a way to ground my move Um. So I came here feeling like it's gonna be fine, it's fine, it's fine. And we got here and it was fine. My son got into the only spot at this beautiful Montessori school. It's on 12 acres. Wow, they get to go outside and be in nature every single day.

Stephanie: 21:59

They have goats oh my gosh amazing yes, they get to take care of and, um, there's students who look like him, which was a big concern for us in Los Angeles there isn't a lot of diversity going on yeah, um, so for him to have teachers who look like him and for him to have classmates that look like him.

Stephanie: 22:19

um, and for us, we found a community of seven couples, which I mean there was one couple in his toddler class who introduced us to this group and you know, we went out over the Christmas break and the husbands decided they were going to do a wife appreciation dinner for us.

Jenee: 22:45

Oh, yeah, and.

Stephanie: 22:46

I was like yes. And yes, and thank you, and please keep on doing that. So we arrived at dinner and there's roses and they gave us journals to write, like to write on, and they gave us these personalized mugs that had like our school name and the moms, and it was just really so cute, so cute, so cute um, and also it was my first time being in community with non-creative people all like all non-creative.

Stephanie: 23:16

None of them do anything close to what I do, um, and so I'm like I don't even know how to act around y'all. But also then talking about the things that they love in the industry and like looking for people's celebrities names that I'm just familiar with. And so I'm just you know.

Stephanie: 23:34

so it's been really beautiful, a beautiful journey and and in that as well, like finding me again when you become a mom, obviously like there's a big shift and that was a whole thing too, and I had gotten to a really good place before I left Los Angeles, but coming here, it wasn't like another kind of rebirth for me. Um, and I would say in the last six months even it has gotten stronger and stronger.

Stephanie: 24:12

I decided I was going to do um, yes, I was doing, um, digital marketing and you know it was a program that now, don't get me wrong the information that's within the program I've learned a ton about marketing and how to build a brand, and all of that kind of stuff has been very valuable for both my personal brand and also for Creatricity. But at the same time, I was not being authentic to me, and the things that I had to share and the things that were important to me and that and that's number one, my spirituality, that is how I show up as an entrepreneur, that is how I show up as a mom, um, and so I found accountability partners, people along the way that have really said Stephanie, just show you, um. And also, how can you embody the version of you that already runs a seven figure business, the version of you, thank you.

Jenee: 25:32

That's it. That's it, cause that's what I'm seeing. That's what I'm seeing. Yes, yeah, that's exactly it.

Stephanie: 25:39

It's not showing up. That's exactly it is. It's not showing up tentatively, like a girlfriend of mine said to me the other day. She was like take up space. Yes, stop fucking around, stop trying to hide, stop covering yourself up. Put your fucking makeup on and show up, stop hiding. And I was exactly hiding and I was like.

Stephanie: 26:02

that thing hit me in a day like a dagger in the chest, but at the same time it was like, oh, I have permission to do so. I have so many big personalities around me. My co-founder is a star. My husband is a star, stephanie, you are too.

Jenee: 26:20

You are.

Stephanie: 26:20

Yeah, you are too. You are, yeah, you are too like, thank you claiming it like claiming it it is so, ma'am like that that was the thing that had to get settled with within me, and once I said no more playing small, that's when the light bulb clicked. I was just like I just have to show up and when I, if, if and when I can show up on a consistent basis, feeling good because she does seven figures Stephanie has is feeling really good.

Stephanie: 26:52

I can show up as her every single moment of every single day and whatever I'm feeling and when I have contrast moments that was a big reframe for me recently as well and when I have contrast moments that was a big reframe for me recently as well when things are not going my way, those are moments of contrast, and that is when I get to look at the situation and say, how am I vibrationally incongruent with what it is that I wanted to have happen? Because it wasn't that that thing didn't happen. It was something in me. My thinking, my feelings or my actions are not in the light, so I need to let's do a scan, figure out what that is and then see how that thing is working out for me. What if it is already worked out? What if the delay is, is not denial? What if that means that I'm just going to be seeing it through a different lens and it's bigger than what I could have ever imagined for it to be reach?

Jenee: 27:51

So yeah, Do you have a redirect like example or anything that you do? That's kind of a quick turnaround, or do you just kind of like scan through your field, kind of see what what is? What and then.

Stephanie: 28:07

I had something. I had a excuse me, a potential job opportunity come up recently and it was in the education space um, but create like with pets and with like. It was using my creativity, but in a completely different way, and I was really excited about it. And it got to the point where we were starting to talk about money and like how it was going to come in, and it didn't go my way and I recognized, with the help of some support, uh, friends, get you some friends that are going to call you out, get you some friends who are on a different level, who are already doing the things that you want to do um, or who are currently doing those things or who have already done those things, so that they can reflect that back.

Stephanie: 29:00

Yes, the spaces that are not congruent with where you want to go, and what I recognize is that my energy around receiving that amount of money was wishy-washy feeling wobbly.

Stephanie: 29:15

Yes, yeah, um, so that was around, worthiness that was around, you know, feeling that was around my inner child feeling, you know, um, feeling like it's hard to make that amount of money without working, without working super, super hard. Yes, um, so I'd do some reframing. So I do a lot of writing, um, that's a really helpful tool for me, um, and something that I reclaimed recently. I had stopped journaling, I had stopped writing, um, so that was a big um thing for me. Whenever I'm feeling shaky or like contrast is showing up in a way that's triggering me, I asked myself number one, what is this here for? What does this show? What is this showing me about myself, and how can I reframe this to see that this is for my greater highest good?

Jenee: 30:12

That's so powerful. And then you just kind of do a free write journaling.

Stephanie: 30:17

Free write. Yeah, it's definitely a free write, and sometimes anger comes up and we have to allow that to be present, because that's a real emotion and it's also what's the root of the anger.

Jenee: 30:38

Why am I angry.

Stephanie: 30:39

Am I angry because I procrastinated? Am I angry because I'm not allowing? That's also it too. Like can we be in a consistent space of allowing and receptivity and also not feeling like we're separate from the thing that we're calling forward, because that thing is already there. It's already there in a different dimension. But also, can we collapse that time by just showing up as if it already is? Yeah.

Jenee: 31:14

Yeah, it was so like going back to the Bufo session with you and like it's still one of my favorite, like of all the people we've served, it's it's one of my favorite uh sessions because there was just this like pure surrender. And I also like serving a mom, you know, and working with a newer mom and you're already in that, like I think we had even said before you started like you're like I already know the portal of surrender and that's a big, big aspect of that, of that medicine is you have to surrender because you have absolutely no control. And you were just like I love the first, like the first journey. You were like yes, and you were just like I love the first, like the first journey. You were like yes, and you were just like and it was like such a kick, you know, it was like so fun to be in service to you and just like this was like what your soul needed.

Jenee: 32:17

It was just a pure like relaxation. And you know, I just knew there were like so many things coming for you in that journey and when Philip and I left and we also knew you were on the eve of a move and I was aware of like your, your business, and like how that was just starting to thrive and and you know Philip was like, you know she is so powerful and he just saw that, like he, he's very good at like, um, seeing people and reading kind of the foundation of what's going on with them and, um, um, he definitely has that vision and that sight and he was like she's so powerful, she's just like on the, she's on the precipice of something huge, you know.

Jenee: 33:11

So it's always such an honor to to be in ceremony and and witness someone in their, in their power and in all the spaces and in all all the ways that that medicine works, works through people, um, and, like you said, not everybody has like such an easy experience with that medicine, you know, and and the surrender part is so huge. But what I love is it it continues to kind of unfold.

Jenee: 33:41

it's a you know it's intelligent, that it it continues to kind of unfold, it's a you know, it's intelligent that medicine and it continues to unfold in your life and you feel that like closeness with close, like you start to feel that closeness with creator and that like pure love, you know, and that that sort of carries that can carry you for a really long time of just you know and knowing, like knowing. Without a doubt. I am not alone, I am like beyond loved. It's so you know, it's so powerful.

Stephanie: 34:15

It's such a beautiful. I have recommended it to so many people.

Speaker 3: 34:21

I was, like I'm, the only people I want you to sit with yeah, because it just um.

Stephanie: 34:26

I was like I'm trying to figure out how to facilitate something here because, people need it and also I'm living in Dallas, texas, so people really, really, really need it.

Jenee: 34:37

Texas is, it's a wild card.

Stephanie: 34:39

Yeah, yeah it, yeah, it's been a. You know, we, we definitely ride down the street and see the flags waving, and that's you know. I was in LA, so we didn't have we, it's there and it's present everywhere, but not like it is here.

Jenee: 35:02

So and it's present everywhere, but not like it is here. So, and how, I want to definitely like continue on or talk about mindset and stuff, but I I am curious like how that has, how have you been able to settle into being there and in a way that like where you feel like it's lifting you up and it has mainly been about community.

Stephanie: 35:30

Yeah, and you know, I think that is something that um and as we left LA, a lot of our friends there have said you know, we miss you guys. You guys were the hub. You were the hub for community. You brought everybody together and it's such a hard city to get community, to keep community In LA, in Los Angeles, yeah.

Jenee: 35:58

Yes, yeah.

Stephanie: 36:00

An authentic community.

Stephanie: 36:01

Yeah, yeah, um, and authentic community not that's um, superficial or anything like that, um, and so we have intentionally, you know, done things. Thankfully, we have um, my brother-in-law, my sister-in-law, both live here with their partners. So, um, both live here with their partners. So, um, you know, my nieces and nephew, they, they both, they're here too. So even my son has community um with them, and then the school community, and I think we're just trying to be intentional about who we spend our time with, where we go. Um, you know, this is it's, you know, the Bible belt, so it's very heavily populated with, um, you know, christian communities and and people are lovely, I mean don't get me wrong.

Stephanie: 36:54

There's a lot of lovely people here, um, and there's also a lot of closeted races. So, um, I think the thing that has helped us is our discernment is high. Yeah, we're very sure of you know, trying, I call it trying the spirit by the spirit. So if I feel incongruent.

Stephanie: 37:18

I like, I just need to get my brakes back up and we keep to ourselves. We find things to do. There's so much to do. There's so many museums and stuff to do with family, and the weather here is really only cold for I don't know two months, yeah, and then it's either really really nice or really really really hot, yeah, it's like Texas is the worst.

Jenee: 37:49

Yeah, so I think Arizona is bad, but it's like it's it's nice in comparison. Yeah, totally Every day. Yeah, yeah, um, yeah, it's like someone pouring a hot bucket of water on you. It's like so ridiculously hot and then on top of it.

Stephanie: 38:07

It's like it's crazy so sometimes when the the weather says 98, it's actually like 115 yeah so we're inside a lot, um, and we have a toddler, so it is being very creative about his activities and keeping him engaged, keeping ourselves cool, um. If we do go to a pool, it's an indoor pool, um, so yeah yeah yeah.

Jenee: 38:41

So I want to continue on this, this topic of you coming into this, the space of like power, and I'm curious if you're still like doing kundalini. I I'm I wonder about that.

Stephanie: 38:59

Yeah, I was actually speaking to or just messaging with someone who is part of our world, really? Yes, and she has stayed, you know, very like, steadfast, to that path. And we were in training at the same time, that path and, um, we were in training at the same time and while I find the breath work to be extremely helpful for me, I still practice the breath work, um, and some of the Cree. Honestly, some of the careers actually do help really move energy and help reset the nervous system. So.

Stephanie: 39:41

I do find myself like let me pull out. You know, the nervous system reset that. I really love that. Yeah.

Jenee: 39:51

That's the only set I do. Yeah. That.

Stephanie: 39:56

I do still. Yeah, yeah, so that that one's still um. I sometimes will do that. I can't do it now, Um, but the morning set. Yeah that's a great set, um, but that's really it. I this was part of stepping into power and I'm I don't. I would love to know if this um resonates with you too, but the sensationalism, um and people worship, that was kind of going on, still kind of going on um in and around that community really repelled me from continuing, continuing at least on that path.

Stephanie: 40:47

Um and owning my own sovereignty, yep, um and the ability to tap into spirit and and just the same, if not more powerful way um was, has been really empowering as well. To just say no, I don't. I can achieve the same levels and beyond. I experienced it with Gufo. I experienced it in daily, just being in my own personal practice. I can achieve those same levels and breakthroughs in my own self-guided ways. I find I've done a lot of work with Dr Joe Dispenza, his work so amazing. I mean, what a?

Jenee: 41:42

gift, what a gift to humanity Like.

Stephanie: 41:47

I I have done a little studying um the Silva method, um a Silva mind control method.

Jenee: 41:56

I'm doing that right now. I'm training in that right now. Okay, yeah, it's so, it's so interesting yeah.

Stephanie: 42:05

Um, yeah, that's. That's. That's the thing that really helps me understand how to do this, how to collapse that time? Um, yeah, so I don't. Are you doing that through mind Valley? Yeah, okay, is that? Oh cool it as well? Yeah, um, corn, yeah, we did, oh cool it as well. Yeah, um, cornelius, and I did that as well. And um, when you get to it, or if you've um not heard of it, I have been working with visions um six phase meditation. It's 10 minutes long, oh cool um, I'll send it to you after it's great.

Jenee: 42:38

That'd be great, is it? Is that in the later part of the program, or is that a different aspect of the different aspects of his work, but it's definitely like it's seeded in that. I would love to work with that.

Jenee: 42:51

Yeah, it's, it's so it's, I love this, the Sullivan method and also what you're talking about with Joe Dispenza, cause it just like that sovereignty, it just kind of like closes the gaps on, like, oh, okay, it's I. I felt like with kundalini I was always like there was a disempowering aspect to it, even though I was studying a lots of I was studying a lot of you know a lot of other mystery schools and esoterics To have the pure science come in with. Dr, Joe, yes.

Jenee: 43:27

And the SOMA method is also very scientific because it works with the brainwaves. Yes, and I just think when you start to have like, when you start to have, there's an and also there's no pedestalizing of a person that's delivering the message. You know, it's like I don't get that from dr joe, actually or vision, even though, like, they both have huge platforms but there's no, you know, or that was the thing about Kuli, it was like a religion, almost in that way.

Stephanie: 44:03

You know, I, I hear you and I understand and echo some of those same sentiments as well, like I don't. I find that my approach to you know the meditations and the teachings that Dr Joe has and that Vishen has, it's all about just I want the information, and it makes it feel like it is school, let's say. And.

Stephanie: 44:32

I'm just taking a course. I'm understanding. You know how my mind works and why you know the combination of my thoughts, feelings and actions are doing. I love about Dr Joe's work is that he has you teach your peers every single step of the way. He's going to teach you a concept and then he's going to have you teach it to somebody else sitting next to you, and that's been really helpful because that brings it back to now. I've created a new neural pathway because I understand it on the cellular level as opposed to just understanding it spiritually. Because yes, of course we're tapped in, but if I can understand the spirit, the science behind the spirituality, then then I'm even more powerful, because now I can teach it to somebody and they can say oh, I get that, I can implement that, I can move on, that. I can understand that when I get into a contrast moment, I'm in imbalance and this is why and this is why so for me.

Stephanie: 46:01

Stepping away from Kundalini wasn't stepping away from my spirituality. It was stepping into my sovereignty. It was taking what works from that set of information and using what works for me, I still really, really love the mantra. I have had to stop listening to certain people singing certain mantras. They shall remain nameless. But I have had to stop ingesting certain frequencies because we know how strong and powerful frequency is.

Jenee: 46:24

Oh, yeah, I love that. That's so amazing. Yeah, it's, it's.

Stephanie: 46:31

It makes so much sense, kind of like knowing where you're at and yeah, we're on the other, we're on the other, we're on the other, the other side, and I and I am so grateful to some of the teachers that we had um, may she rest in peace. Yeah, um, I am super grateful to, because that, honestly, was a bit of opening up my eyes to my personal sovereignty, my business, you know, boss mentality, um, and also how much energy that it takes to vibrate at that level. Seven figure business owners have a completely different energy than somebody who is making five figures a month. Yeah, four figures a month, yeah, um, and so even that has been something that has shifted for me. In the last, I understood it, it was seeded during that time, but now it's starting to be something that I'm embodying, I'm understanding um in a real way.

Jenee: 47:44

So can you, could you explain um energetically what you feel are some of the differences, or does it feel like it's habits or it?

Stephanie: 47:56

is definitely speed Procrastination. I think we all deal with that in some measure in our life, in our career. Seven figure.

Stephanie: 48:16

Stephanie does not procrastinate, she acts, she does aligned action, she acts, she does aligned action, she delegates. She has systems in place that help her, like, move faster, more efficiently, so she's not feeling. Even better still at this is my self-care and putting myself first um, even over and above my son and him Um. That was a big challenge because I grew up watching my mom put everyone first Um, and so that was just kind of my, my rhythm, that was what I was doing, and so now it is just taking who I was at this, raising the, literally raising the vibration, and operate. It's like a new operating system. So I have to remind myself daily because you, we have to be reminded um, of who we are Um, and that helps with the journaling, but that also helps with just who is she and what decision? What decision would she make right now?

Stephanie: 49:36

What decision would I make as her right now? Um. So I think that has been the largest shift, um, and it's been gradual, but I would say, you know, the last two to three months it's really starting to like I'm starting to hit a pulse now.

Jenee: 49:59

Yeah, and how do what for you? Um, what does aligned action work for you? How do you know when something feels like you've, you've hit it and it's like, yes, this is it really is.

Stephanie: 50:16

I mean, it's a gut check for me, Honestly. There are things that all of us have desires to do that we haven't taken action on because we're afraid. So fear is a big blockage. So usually if I feel fear around moving, that is my indicator that it's actually is aligned action for me.

Jenee: 50:48

I love that. Yeah, people need to hear that. I mean, I've been paralyzed in fear over things for years.

Jenee: 50:56

And I just recently, and I was like it can't be right because I'm so afraid. And then I just had recently heard someone else say maybe I heard you say that, oh wow, and I think it was one of the things I like saved and was like I need to read, I need to come back to this video constantly, because I think it was you and you said like that's where, like the juices, like that's where you know indicator that is.

Stephanie: 51:22

I feel like it's your indicator light. It's like, okay, go right or go left, but you gotta move because if I'm feeling fear around it, you need to check your baby. You need to check your inner child and see where did this come from? It's a place where I got blocked as a kid. Is this a place where I got blocked as a kid? Is this a place where I got blocked in my 20s? Where is it in the timeline? How can I transmute it immediately into some movement? Because it means I need to go towards that direction. Because for me, the difference between fear and I don't need to do that is you're also going to get a clear. The difference between fear and I don't need to do that is you're also going to get it.

Stephanie: 52:01

You're also going to get a clear indication, a clear gut check when it's not a action you will know, yeah, that's a no, because if it's not a hell yes, typically it's a oh, I want to do that, but I'm afraid of someone else's opinion of you of that. Somebody else is doing it better than you already that it's going to look silly, that you're going to look. It's a self-limiting thought behind it. So it means that you need to do it so you can clear that shit. But a no is going to be a clear no and you're going to be like, yeah, I knew that. And then spirit will come back and confirm for you. You'll see it. You'll get a sign, you'll see something happen in your 3D that confirms that yep, I wasn't supposed to do that, that was not for me. Or you'll hear a story about oh, that's his experience with shitty, or this was not. You know what it appeared to be.

Jenee: 53:08

I feel like I need a book on this. I think you need to write that book.

Stephanie: 53:14

Okay, it's so powerful. This is the kind of stuff that just makes my world go round Like having these kind of conversations. I was telling you earlier about my throat chakra and being, and having been blocked there and, um, that was one of the things obviously, as singers, we know.

Stephanie: 53:48

um, when we're feeling blocked in our throat, it's because we actually have something really powerful to say um and so, for me, showing up on podcasts this year was a goal of mine, um, before you even said anything, and I was like, oh my gosh, like thank you so much for just following that little intuition um to ask me to come here. Um, because the more I practice uh, it's a practice for me to speak to um to bring my voice back online.

Stephanie: 54:26

Um, and then singing is going to be. Singing is going to be next. Um. Singing gets to be next. Um cause I. I lived in LA for 10 years and I this was a big sadness that I had about leaving. As well, people didn't know that I was a singer and I and I sang for a living. Wow, my undergraduate degree is vocal performance. I did not know that. Wow.

Stephanie: 55:00

I am a classically trained soprano. I sang on cruise ships for seven years what yeah? Performed for thousands of people like every single week, and when I moved to LA, like, I did a couple of background gigs, but I never performed solo After I left Ships. I have not sung solo. That's crazy, and I left Ships in 2012. It's time.

Jenee: 55:35

It's time.

Stephanie: 55:36

It's time. So I'm looking forward to seeing what that gets to be so funny. I did one like little corporate gig while I was an agent. One of my friends called me up. He was like I need a singer tonight and I was like tonight. He was like, yeah, you can do it. Had to learn a whole new song and it was an exercise in oh, I haven't sang, my voice is tired and that you know.

Stephanie: 56:11

If you don't practice, if you're not practicing every day, your voice, you will lose it you will lose it, you will lose the brain, my um transition from my um my chest voice into my head. Voice my break hotness that's so common. When you have it, you know it's like oh I was like, oh my god, I used to be the girl who did not warm up and who could just be like I know, and now I have to warm up for a long time.

Jenee: 56:45

That is like a whole world I could talk about forever. I'm I'm like struggling with my own things around the voice and it's it's very, very upsetting and disheartening, um, because I went through menopause 10 years ago and it's like catching up with me and so I'm having a lot, of, a lot of struggles with my voice. But I'm finally deciding to be proactive and I'm like I hope it's not too late, but I'm I'm seeing, I'm having to see specialists, I'm there's a whole bunch of stuff that I'm having to like take, take on right now and dealing with the emotions around it. But it's like you just don't realize, like how much you cherish your voice until it's like there's not the opportunity to have it. So, or you know it's not, it's not what it was, it's changing a lot, and you know, um, yeah, it's.

Jenee: 57:42

I would just say, like, go for it and go back in and, like you know, get the support and the help you need you know, like just get back into it, cause, oh, if I could like go back 10 years and do things a little bit differently. Um, if I would have like been a little more proactive and like my, my daily work and my practice and and my self care around my voice, like, yeah, it's just adjusting. You know it's adjusting to something new and that can be hard, but also, like you have to look at the, the. It's like looking at the silver lining of how things have changed.

Stephanie: 58:26

You know, but yeah, I just I know, um, janae, you are. Your voice is such a gift to thank you, and so I feel like even whatever you're working through right now on the other side is a new clarity. Thank you, and so, please be kind, thank you, my friend, thank you.

Jenee: 58:55

Yes, Well, I'm so excited and maybe we can do a recap in like you know six months or so and see how things are going and I'm so, I'm so just excited for this next phase, for you and this seven figure woman that you are. Welcome to you as well, thank you. Thank you, it's such a, such an absolute pleasure and honor to have you on likewise thank you for having me.

Stephanie: 59:30

I'm honored and blessed to sit with you always um the gift that your work is and what it means to the world and to women everywhere. So thank you.

Jenee: 59:44

Thank you and hopefully we'll get to come and sit with you again.

Stephanie: 59:53

I call it a party, but yeah, totally, not everybody calls it that.

Jenee: 1:00:06

Thank you, janine. Yeah, have a wonderful day you too. Talk to you soon. The Heartlight Sessions podcast is executive produced and hosted by me, janae Halstead. It's edited, mixed and mastered by me too. And that theme song you hear, it's called Heartlight. And yep, you guessed it, it's from my record Disposable Love. Got questions about a certain healing modality or about heart-centered healing, or maybe you just need some advice on life, love or creativity. Send it my way, email me at letters at heartlightpodcastcom. Until next time, I'm Janae Halstead, and thanks for listening to Heartlight Sessions. Bye.